Causing arguements

Noticed too that after the camera we've been arguing a few times already, and mostly im the cause of it i started it. maybe im just not satisfied with not getting what i want while he does, jealous i think. buh! what for i get jealous je! bodoh! convinced myself not everyone gets what they want, everyone works hard to get what they want. i guess i need to work harder, wait and see.

hoping he would give me that something i want most for my upcoming bday but its so fcking impossible haha. and also that want of mine from my parents, fcking impossible hahahaha. well, i guess i have to work my way up to those stuff then :) i have to dream on and get that this is fcking reality, NOT EVERYONE GETS WHAT THEY WANT. as much as i love him, sometimes im just jealous and envy it hurts.

oh! gonna get my braces tighten 3 days b4 me bday too, nice bday present. i guess i only update to pour my feelings out once in a while other than twitter. well, released.

meow xoxo

Its been awhile

Haven't been touching this blog for awhile now, malas bha. haha so will only update like once in a while. so, whats been going on lately is pretty normal. Midterm is coming up and postponed the hotel thing to monday, that time pun mcm no mood everyone and one of us didn't come. hopefully monday will do it cuz can't delay anymore, midterms and trips are delaying it and makes it very hard to do this shit ass presentation in time.

these few weekends will be busy with trips, next saturday Pulau Manukan with Bainon, Sam, Sabby and love CAN'T WAIT!! 1st time go pulau and with awesome friends! :3 the following week will have college trip to kundasang, FINALLY! at least for once we have a trip in this one time college life with classmates and good friends, hopefully everyone can go! :3

so love went back to ranau for his grandpa's bday today. won't be seeing him till..dunno when haha we might be busy cuz of college.

so today went to tg aru with some friends for Student Council activity to bond with the others, tiring cuz barely ate and was playing some games too intense. i ate flour btw haha! it was fun though, got back around 1 and bathed Bobo with dad was so freakin tired didn't consume much food went to take a nap immediately after bathing him. He wooke me up with his call, nasib la haha if not i can sleep through the night.

so tomorrow will be another lazy sunday at home, should i go cp and have dinner with Vun? yeeeeee need to make up my mind i don't have his number lg tu ==

so i guess thats it? more updates later on :)

6th Feb

Today, went out in the afternoon for lunch at Seven Seas Restaurant. a new one somewhere at sri kepayan. food is awesome! it was the grand opening so went there for the food haha. went to cut my hair after that, finally a lil lighter. hair was beginning to be unruly and messy!

after that watch How I Met Your Mother till we go to Hui's place for Chap Goh Mei dinner with her familia :D got to see ze pups!!! SO ADORABLEEEEEE!! GAWD i couldn't stop smiling :D got my last angpau for cny.

So Bainon plans we all go pulau on the 25th, decided to bring him along it'll be funn!! can't wait! and also gonna have trip for school but need to really2 save cash. gaji is cmg soon hopefully its enough! :/ pray pray it jadi and enough! ngeeh

4th Feb

went to meet up with him at Tg Aru since he's there and i miss that place. i know ppl think its boring but i love to go to Tg Aru for the view and the awesome wind :D His mum came down to kk for her business, make up the bride for their photoshoot. so we met up with her at karam and she bought her new phone, asking if nice or not lg. ngeeeehh malu sy haha! so waited for the couple to meet up with us and they did, had lunch with them while his mum went to ask about her phone problem. left the 4 of us talking sooo, the husband thought we were brother and sister. hahahahaha he was embarrassed aawww :3

its surprising we thought they've been dating 5 or 6 years before getting married, skali they bru masuk 1 year in their relationship. damn! heran oh, but they mmg in that age ody la and their parents are okay with it so wth congrats them lor :) his mum mmg sporting la when it comes to us. ngeeeh she put her hand over my shoulder when we jalan2 hahahahahahaha funny oh!! 1st time that close to me boyfie's mum :p stayed over his place cuz his mum mau bawa us go Tg Aru again, so since have the chance i wanna go again! but last min x jadi :/

so stayed at home only, if i have the car i would like to go Tg Aru and just stay there lama2 :D this day going out is a replacement for our monthsary. had a wonderful time with them ;)

drove to wisma after that and went our separate ways, mum uncle and the couple went to try out their baju while the both of us jalan2 and see got what movie. end up wasting our time at Times. HAHA went back after that. ingatkan

Setting them aside and let happiness in :)

Yesterday went out with sammy after class, met up with her at Suria. since we were waiting for bainon we watched Journey 2! :D he ody watch so i watch with sam la! it was alright, funny parts too. but must watch Journey to The Center of the Earth 1st before watching this. its sorta like a continuation.

walked around and went to ctmall, got rid of our craving for pizza while waiting for Bainon to finish up gym. :) finished up her magazine cover assignment and Bainon sent me home, but we talk and talk till we parked outside my house and just continue talking. about college, people there and all the drama that happened ever since i started.

today after class went to his place straight cuz he's been dying to see me since he got back. like literally wanting to see me, telling me to skip classes and all. awwww :) i told him to be patient and we'll meet eventually so we did. after what happened ofcourse he would wanna settle it in person so we did a little bit.

my gay boyfriend :)

things have been rough, in the end he read my blog jg. ish! talked about it and settled it, i eventually put it aside and just let things flow the way it has always been :) will always love him despite people judging us and he loves me too :)

Happy 1 year and 6 months love<3