Been busy, again

Had my final exam last week and tmrw  is my last paper, yay!

after that go watch avengers with love.

been a tough week

something happened in college and got bitten by bobo

such a fckd up week can say and now sorta having a fight with him

cuz i really no mood since pms is finally here ==

and its our monthsarry, okaaaaaaayyy

replace the celebration to tmrw la.

went to had dinner with Sam yesterday

ate alot! like non stop eating and now bankrupt!

after that went fr a drink with Bainon and Tasha since she's back for awhile

so get to hang with her for awhile :)

after exam just wanna relax my mind 

gonna have a pulau trip with love ones again

and a not confirmed KB trip with some friends.

hopefully i can go cuz i literally have no money right now ==

need to get from dad la

malas wanna update sometimes

i just wanna get away! 

fast la habis exam i just wanna GET AWAY

Unplanned

woke up at 11 was watching American Idol

then got a call from Serena

she was bored and it was burning hot today

so she ask me out for a movie, crazy thing,

we bought tickets for 3:20 show so we had another hour she wanted to go 1b to buy something fr h er mum sooooooo.. we rushed to 1b then back just in time for the movie haha

watched The Hunger Games up front man! my eyes and head hurts so much

then love called and say he and his friend was also in Suria wanting to watch another movie at 6+

so i joined them immediately after a movie with Serena.

Wrath of The Titans, not bad but i need to watch the 1st one to understand :/

i can't believe how guys have no taste in Hunger Games! pnya nice that! screw them ==

after movie with love we head back, his friend sent me home

and here i am now.

gonna turn off early, college tmrw for new intake :/

Goodnights

Oh, this person is weird

Maybe its just me cuz this someone tell me to text him

so i texted him and he gave me a "sepa ni?" ==

its bad enough i wasn't in the mood and was sleepy

he misses me, he keeps saying that over and over again

"i miss you, do you miss me?"

i didn't answer him but change the topic instead

he keeps going back to "i miss you" also

uh okaaaay please stop. :/

another text from this person last night

asking me if i slept ody, bt say soon

"nothing la :) night2." uh okaaay

being weird here!

:/

Recently

Have been busy with ass-signments lately

rush here rush there and finals is already next week and next week and the week after ==

he also tells me not to be distracted and focus on the finals

okokay! will try my best :D

thank God assignments are over though,

can't take another min being in the same group with that certain person

==

hopefully no more same group with that person next sem.

please please please.

nothing much to write already though cuz im quiet lazy :/

Finals is coming soon and i gotta get ready

sorta :p

23/3/2012

So i had my brithday on this day

it was delightful :3

the night before, spent the night at his place before i spend my day with ma sistas

he sucks at suprising!

he said i didn't sempat buy me a cake but he actually did

before we had our dinner something happened and my mood was down awile

he keeps asking me why i just kinda ignore him, he was unpleasent with that

during dinner i noticed he tapuk2 the fridge when he take drink out

hahahaha DUH

after dinner i told him cuz of the past. bodoh btl

he would just comfort me and don't want the "star of the day" to feel like that.

he cheered me up

lying on bed and talking, he kept asking me what time is it.

strike 12 he went out to check his download knun! then he pakai baju

got a text from Bainon wishing me then he brought me out

"surprising" me with a cake hahahaha! they whole house of friends sang for me

it was very sweet of them and i was touched

I'm a very happy girl :3

went home in the afternoon and Bainon, Sam and Sabby brought to dinner at Party Play

and i thought that was it but NOOOOOOOOOO

they brought me to clubbing at White Room

was shocked man. it was unexpected. :O

i had fun :3

but he was furious cuz i didn't pick up his calls

i straighten him out though

but i can't go clubbing nymore :/

he was so worry so scared of what might happened :(

so sorry love :(

Beginning to look like a graveyard

hello hello!

gonna try to update as much as i can kay

thats if anyone even read this :/

oh well.

So i haven't been updating since 11th March

damn its been a month :/

so im just updating on what i remember the most :)

you son of a gun ;)

His place on friday and spent the night. he was going back to his hometown for awhile, i guess he miss me? hehehe :3 so suddenly we had a looonnngggg talk. well not so long, but heart to heart about our exs' and things idk, things he dunno. so we spilled.

at that one point i broke down cuz he said when we were together for the first 6 months, he still have feelings for her and it was stronger than he was with me. broke down crying, it really hurts. after that he just reassured me, comfort me and hug me. telling me it was already the past, i asked him if he saw her now would he have any feelings towards her? honestly. he said no. relieved? maybe, im not even sure. now whenever he goes back to his hometown i feel insecure again.

i don't like her and never will. after crying and talking we settled down. then hunger strikes the both of us. so we cooked for ourselves. i love it if we cook together :3 we cooked fried chicken and i ate with my hands for the 1st time! :3 cepat kenyang oh! if my nails weren't that long i would enjoy it fully! love love spending time with him so so sooo much.

iloveyoujerk ;3

Causing arguements

Noticed too that after the camera we've been arguing a few times already, and mostly im the cause of it i started it. maybe im just not satisfied with not getting what i want while he does, jealous i think. buh! what for i get jealous je! bodoh! convinced myself not everyone gets what they want, everyone works hard to get what they want. i guess i need to work harder, wait and see.

hoping he would give me that something i want most for my upcoming bday but its so fcking impossible haha. and also that want of mine from my parents, fcking impossible hahahaha. well, i guess i have to work my way up to those stuff then :) i have to dream on and get that this is fcking reality, NOT EVERYONE GETS WHAT THEY WANT. as much as i love him, sometimes im just jealous and envy it hurts.

oh! gonna get my braces tighten 3 days b4 me bday too, nice bday present. i guess i only update to pour my feelings out once in a while other than twitter. well, released.

meow xoxo

Its been awhile

Haven't been touching this blog for awhile now, malas bha. haha so will only update like once in a while. so, whats been going on lately is pretty normal. Midterm is coming up and postponed the hotel thing to monday, that time pun mcm no mood everyone and one of us didn't come. hopefully monday will do it cuz can't delay anymore, midterms and trips are delaying it and makes it very hard to do this shit ass presentation in time.

these few weekends will be busy with trips, next saturday Pulau Manukan with Bainon, Sam, Sabby and love CAN'T WAIT!! 1st time go pulau and with awesome friends! :3 the following week will have college trip to kundasang, FINALLY! at least for once we have a trip in this one time college life with classmates and good friends, hopefully everyone can go! :3

so love went back to ranau for his grandpa's bday today. won't be seeing him till..dunno when haha we might be busy cuz of college.

so today went to tg aru with some friends for Student Council activity to bond with the others, tiring cuz barely ate and was playing some games too intense. i ate flour btw haha! it was fun though, got back around 1 and bathed Bobo with dad was so freakin tired didn't consume much food went to take a nap immediately after bathing him. He wooke me up with his call, nasib la haha if not i can sleep through the night.

so tomorrow will be another lazy sunday at home, should i go cp and have dinner with Vun? yeeeeee need to make up my mind i don't have his number lg tu ==

so i guess thats it? more updates later on :)

6th Feb

Today, went out in the afternoon for lunch at Seven Seas Restaurant. a new one somewhere at sri kepayan. food is awesome! it was the grand opening so went there for the food haha. went to cut my hair after that, finally a lil lighter. hair was beginning to be unruly and messy!

after that watch How I Met Your Mother till we go to Hui's place for Chap Goh Mei dinner with her familia :D got to see ze pups!!! SO ADORABLEEEEEE!! GAWD i couldn't stop smiling :D got my last angpau for cny.

So Bainon plans we all go pulau on the 25th, decided to bring him along it'll be funn!! can't wait! and also gonna have trip for school but need to really2 save cash. gaji is cmg soon hopefully its enough! :/ pray pray it jadi and enough! ngeeh

4th Feb

went to meet up with him at Tg Aru since he's there and i miss that place. i know ppl think its boring but i love to go to Tg Aru for the view and the awesome wind :D His mum came down to kk for her business, make up the bride for their photoshoot. so we met up with her at karam and she bought her new phone, asking if nice or not lg. ngeeeehh malu sy haha! so waited for the couple to meet up with us and they did, had lunch with them while his mum went to ask about her phone problem. left the 4 of us talking sooo, the husband thought we were brother and sister. hahahahaha he was embarrassed aawww :3

its surprising we thought they've been dating 5 or 6 years before getting married, skali they bru masuk 1 year in their relationship. damn! heran oh, but they mmg in that age ody la and their parents are okay with it so wth congrats them lor :) his mum mmg sporting la when it comes to us. ngeeeh she put her hand over my shoulder when we jalan2 hahahahahahaha funny oh!! 1st time that close to me boyfie's mum :p stayed over his place cuz his mum mau bawa us go Tg Aru again, so since have the chance i wanna go again! but last min x jadi :/

so stayed at home only, if i have the car i would like to go Tg Aru and just stay there lama2 :D this day going out is a replacement for our monthsary. had a wonderful time with them ;)

drove to wisma after that and went our separate ways, mum uncle and the couple went to try out their baju while the both of us jalan2 and see got what movie. end up wasting our time at Times. HAHA went back after that. ingatkan

Setting them aside and let happiness in :)

Yesterday went out with sammy after class, met up with her at Suria. since we were waiting for bainon we watched Journey 2! :D he ody watch so i watch with sam la! it was alright, funny parts too. but must watch Journey to The Center of the Earth 1st before watching this. its sorta like a continuation.

walked around and went to ctmall, got rid of our craving for pizza while waiting for Bainon to finish up gym. :) finished up her magazine cover assignment and Bainon sent me home, but we talk and talk till we parked outside my house and just continue talking. about college, people there and all the drama that happened ever since i started.

today after class went to his place straight cuz he's been dying to see me since he got back. like literally wanting to see me, telling me to skip classes and all. awwww :) i told him to be patient and we'll meet eventually so we did. after what happened ofcourse he would wanna settle it in person so we did a little bit.

my gay boyfriend :)

things have been rough, in the end he read my blog jg. ish! talked about it and settled it, i eventually put it aside and just let things flow the way it has always been :) will always love him despite people judging us and he loves me too :)

Happy 1 year and 6 months love<3

Bothering me

something's been bothering me awhile which is not getting what i want. well obviously everyone does, but for me it is really hard :( sometimes im so lame i can cry bcuz of this, parents do give me money but if i work and got gaji obviously they dnt give la but my gaji went bye2 cuz i bought something.

but that wasn't completely mine, i've been wanting to buy from TBS, cotton on and also a new phone. longing these shets for a very long time just couldn't get it. i really hope this month's salary is enough to get me a new phone, i really hope so :'(

parents do give me what i want but not those expensive ones, like a phone or a car. most of my phones are hand-me-downs, means they are pass down from one person to another. that is just sad :/ everyone of my friends get to have cars from their parents, i envy so much cuz my license is rotting in my purse. family doesn't trust me to bring out their car alone anymore after what happen. they just not the type who see you learn from your mistake.

i think my pms is coming o.0 maybe thats why im like this. ngeh, tomorrow finally gonna wear my starbucks tee with friends to college, its lame but i like :)

no need to cry no reason to cry. calm down calm down. don't wanna go college with puffy eyes now would we. :)

27th January 2012

love finally got back from kg and we met at kk to survey our dslr stuff, got a 50mm lens and walked around. Sam called saying tmrw Chol got other plans so we went to kirameki today! since Alyssa off day sam invited her! :D so the four of us and him haha. another girls outing, and him >;3

chol ordered this rice and had the maid

draw something on top, and i wanted meow! :3

went to suria after the cafe, planned to watch a movie but everything's full == so we jalan2 laa do girls stuff haha kcian him i had to dragged him along

so cny had been busy going here and there, well not really. im sorta lazy to update so much cuz i got something else to do so. ciao :)

Happy Chinese New Year :3

got to spend time with before he goes back to ranau for awhile, its always this "tradition" whenever we would go away as in trips, hometown or whatnot we would always spend at least a day with each other before going. :3

Chinese New Year is here! gonna gets angpaus! :D got my 1st one from grandma yesterday. went out with sam too yesterday since she's bored at home, i was also bored at home so wth :D Upperstar for dinner then movie, Jack and Jill! :D it was hilarious! i love it hahahahahahaha, and he dares to say "it was okay" damn boy!

after the movie went shopping at cotton on for cny too :3 so much sales and so much pretty clothes! but so little cash :'( hope it'll still be there after cny! i want that dress sooooo much even though idk where to wear it to. but i really want it!

so today, cny eve. having dinner with relatives tonight and will be preparing and helping parents. im done with my room and bathing my wazzy, kiko dunno go where ESCAPE!! Bobo is next :3 gonna help do 汤圆 later. am gonna miss today's Hapcho :( cuz of preparations, im sorry sam! :(

i only have this time to update awhile so im sorta done?

Happy Chinese New Year to whoever even reads my blog :D

Shopping for CNY

yesterday been shopping with le classmates after 1st class, since we had a looonnngggg break we decided to go jalan2. went to cp jg and check if my slip is out or not, jalan2 and they all bought startbucks T as a group knun haha. i wanted 1 but lack of cash :( next time la i buy

then tdy go jalan2 again 1st in wisma and they bought some stuff

they were going to cp after that but i had to go back college since im meeting Sam and Bainon for lunch. on the way back kna panggil " meow meow meow, psst pssst. Phyli!" turned back it was A. DEI! who would respond you calling like that oh ==

still got time and was waiting for bainon and hui so had a drink with him. he went and ngam2 bainon came! walked to fook yuen and sam couldn't come :( Hui joined us later had chat2 with them. went back to college at 2, 3 of us have class to attend. CLASS WAS SOOOOOOOOOO BORING! == i can die in the class ngeeeeeeehhhhh. went back at 5 plus, had a nap awhile but gantung ==

sakit my kepala.

internet why are you getting BORING! ==

So..

nothing much been going on, his place on friday night and went to watch movie the next day. Alvin and the Chipmunks 3! so ADORABLE and funny!! :D took the bus home cuz save cash. truth be told, after gaji im practically broke. sort of, used it on the camera but heck it was worth it. went through wawasan plaza awhile to survey and get ice cream :3

there was a sale on gold bracelets and leg bracelets, i've been looking for nice leg bracelets so got myself one since he convince me to get it too. so got it! i likey it :3 got back and waited for parents while doing nothinnnggggg. he cooked dinner for me and went home around 9 plus on a saturday night.

so today, nothing. couch potato the whole day till a migrane hit me == had dinner then medicine to get the migrane off. tv again after that, parents and bro went to visit a friend i stayed home. been home alone the whole day. so yeah, tmrw college and i forgot to get my calculator back from him for me accounts :/ damn! need to remember to get it back! accounts has been hectic the 1st time i learnt it. need to get a hang of it, so im off! :)

Heres to today :)

i woke up feeling good today, no nausea no headache. :D am finally getting better after the sick start of 2012. i remembered i touched a snake last year at penang

there it is! :D it is said touch it from head to tail for goodluck all year long. well it hasn't been a good start of the year ==

today finally got to account class, and this 1st time learning accounts my head exploded and so did Hui hahahaha! she gerigitan teaching me, balik2 kna marah >p so must not skip Account class and get the hang of it!!

Have been saving cash for a new cam for me and love, and we finally got it! we were suppose to make the deal together this saturday but since i kept asking so he might as well tell me, he ody made the deal and gotz the cam. suprised me and i cursed at him non stop haha

he hasn't told his mum either but wanted to give her surprise jg, haiyaa. crazy boy. well am happy for him and finally got something he always wanted :)

i am wanting and craving for my appetite back, the nights of eat eat eat and getting me fats back! he was also dissapointed cuz skinny back again cuz of no appetite ever since sickness strike. brother also "determine" to get my fats back hahahaha, gonna EAT this saturday maybe since parents been having wedding dinner non stop day after day since tuesday. goodness. then CNY lg eat eat eat, sad oh my dad nie. he wanted to loose weight bha but since theres wedding dinner and CNY cmg up, sooo hahahaha kcian la.

now am dunno what im doing, looking for assignments to do but majority are just left hanging explanations == well assignments piled up like crazy though, this new sem MUST start assignments early and stop with the last minutes!!!! gotta rot myself away to the tv now, theres nothing here for me in the internet :/

so bye-bye :3

oh HI! :)

Have been lazy to update, ngeh. knew i would get lazy in updating. malas bha!

so yeah, class in the morning and had a LONG freakin break from 10 till 2. during that time went to meet him at cp i wasn't feeling well ody. got there and 1st thing he said why you pucat?? he was so concern telling me to go home with him i look tired and dead :/ went in TBS later on to see them, i miss them! Ah Vun go KL dy tmrw why am i even saying that here? ==

so really wasn't feeling well, HOT again the fcking weather == had to get back before something bad happen. had a nap at his place and went out with sam sam at 4, still wasn't feelin so good. even its obvious to her that im sick, also 1st thing she said to me are you sick? ah damn == appetite wasn't good too but i paksa eat a lil at least but still wasted the food :( had nice chat with her, stayed at yoyo till 6 plus then she had to go college.

parents went to dinner, dad say they will have dinner from tdy till friday non stop. hahahahaha goodluck dad. omg, my brother is slimming non stop also! he's gotten even thinner and down to another 2kg he say. always update me with his weight, good for him! :D

dnt wanna on long cuz vision blurry, hmm :/

Some way to start the new year

haven't update much, you know why? i was fcking sick. terribly sick, cuz of the weather. can barely move can barely talk, can barely keep myself straight.very pening just want to sleep. tmrw have plans with sam they all, damn i really should go i keep giving excuses and delays, this time im not! now i also feel very not well but what to do. i wanna go jg if it wasn't for this fd up sickness.

so nothing much am just gonna sleep early cuz im just tired :/

Hello college :)

1st day of college after 2 months of "holiday". finally got to see me classmates and hopefully new people. i heard the new intake are lcly, hmmmmm bhaaaaa we'll see. so 1st day of school, yeaaaaa. it was boring, class ain't starting yet cuz we're all ice breaking== so me and hui decided to skipped :p malas bha and im also still tired :/ had lunch with her and her ahem :p sorta awkward but trying to get use to it and not be a lightbulb ><

love suddenly wanna come down town, oh alright! its been awhile since we jalan2. since he is still dizzy from the night before so we had hot soup for lunch, thought of watching movie but we went to karam instead to buy something. i was so tired i tertdr in the car, he also noticed im freakin tired :( got home i immediately sleep till 6 plus. teman me for while. its been awhile since we've taken pictures together so this is the chance. here :3

bidanya our faces HAHA :3 crazy but i love him with all my heart :)

Happy 1year 5 months, 我爱你♥ ;)

Its not goodbye

its my last day at TBS cp, ofcourse not really LAST day la. but will really miss them. Ah Lun pnya melata, Vun pnya getehness, Floe pnya getehness also, Mother pnya lecture, Mira, Shelby and Katik :) i can't bare to leave them! after closing i hugged everyone of them including the guys, one by one. Vun gave me such a BIG hug and tight again that aaaaawwwww :3 bye2 2nd husband! hehe he minta me phone number before we part. haha hope he got it right o.0

we finished early and head off, my feet is killing me and tmrw school. gawd == like dad say not even a day's rest oh. haih what to do, worth it though :) gonna get alot of gaji and get new stuff :3 hehe CNY is coming soon and i can't wait!! am going blue this year :3

again, I MISS THEM<3

1st day of 2012

got up early and prepared, PMS came. WTF made my day so freakin moody. == ckit2 mau marah nie, haih! penat again and not enough sleep. gaaah tahaaan tmrw last day working phew! BUT still have to go college the next day i don't want laaaa!! i want my sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep! D;

am gonna miss them, some of them haha. at the end of the day they teda2 play this game. aVun have to eat a peanut from each one of us pnya mouth. but ofcourse x kena la bha!! hahahaha even Ah Lun also kna pnya FUNNY!!! hahahahaha

saw someone outside pass by TBS, and with Chrissy! my classmate, wanted to call her but she's with them and they pass ody.

had lunch and dinner with Ah Vun today! :D since im his 4th "wife" wanted to have at least a day with him knun hahahahahahaha! dinner he got this 2 coupons for free 4 plates of sushi so we decided to have it. but skali kuyak we didn't read properly it says we can only have 1 plate each coupon. kuyak nie but we ate lil bit but gantung. we patak for sushi, gantung we went to eat rice HAHA he belanjaa mee! :D just when i say no need la its okay bhaa, but he say im gonna go off ody tmrw and x jadi belanja me sushi cuz its been awhile since i've eaten sushi :3 MISS!

gonna miss them cp team, wanna take pic with them tmrw hehe for memories<3 :3

am tired and not enough sleep haha goodnight! ;)

Last day of 2011 :)

on this last day of 2011 i had to work :/ but managed to get to his place for drinks after that! had freakin budweiser with them, and it was soo wtf. they bought 2 crack, we only finished one and most of us are really you know hahahaha! FUNNY LA

i think i only remembered half of what i did? he carried me and head super heavy after only 1 bottle had 2 bottles and went kookoo. he wanna see me in that condition kan so his wish came fcking true! damn man. Sam suppose to have new years eve party at her place too but i can't make it :( today also got a circus at her place also cannot go! yeee! missing all the fun, but at least had a lil fun with him :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL, MAY YOUR 2012 BE BETTER THAN 2011! ;)