today ain't a good day for everyone

after class we discuss about the role play for our CS2

sampai bteriak2 hahahaha

stress bha and really confuse on what miss want

discussed and stayed in the class awhile till

Mr. Abim comes in

continue discussing it in common room

done all that went to bank get some money

and go eat at kopitiam

makin love to stay there nie!

very relaxing and cooling outside :D

had our lunch there

the nasi goreng ayam is NICE!

woke up from my nap and thought

omg! that fried rice was awesome!

hahahahaha

and just now at 5:30 there was a train accident

near putatan, it hit the oil tank and it was tragic

fire and black smoke coming out

all we can do is pray and give our deepest condolences to those died there :(

did i mention there was a "fight" at kopitiam we had lunch there?

it was A. saw his frustrated look

didn't really look at him

and now he looked for me for comfort.

so yeah, trying my best to comfort him in a not marah way

ngeeeh.

tmrw is midterm! die la

im not studying in fact blogging

i can't study tmrw cuz i have my cousin's wedding to attend

gonna wear a dress to college. ngeeeeehhhhh

kna cakap nie nanti ==

malas sy!

bha yea la enough la. gonna find food again soon.

didn't really eat dinner :/

mum said his lil bro, my uncle

is coming here for holiday with his family

suddenly my room is the victim for his family!

NO!!

this uncle of mine has a fckd up attitude i never like

he doesn't care about his own parents

and his kids are sorta spoiled ==

i don't want them trashing up my room!!!!

MUST aircond again my mum say

WTF what is wrong with my sister's room?

my room, my privacy! alot of my stuff is here lor!

then mum say they thinking wanna give their room to them

but wtf man!

can't they find somewhr else to stay?

since they're rich go hotel laaaaaa

how can i want them to give up their room.

ISH

last2 i give up my room jg nie.

you see la. kima pnya uncle

yeah don't mind me i curse alot even my relatives

who have fd up attitudes.

period

LYB sales today

The bodyshop Love Your Body sales is today

helped out with them gang

almost 12-13 staff in a shop. gawd ==

had fun though but very tired.

ate maggie for lunch

and KFC chicken rice for dinner

just now supper again. goodness

makan sampai mati

bought my stuff! like finally!

am happy to buy my own stuff

using half of my money hahahaha

but now bankrup lor :/

need to wait this month's gaji next month.

gaaah! lama lg :(

leg sore, dunno if this time got commision o not :/

Sigh

went to his fb to see his picture when

he and his friends play the bong

was very funny

then had the chance to check his inbox

saw his chat with her

still with "huby and b"

haih

dunno how should i react

just trying to be cool about it

obviously im depress duh.

don't know what to do.

meet ma babies

Kiko being emo, i opened the door in the living room

he sat infront of the door and stare outside. o.o

he had beautiful blue eyes btw. for a mixed Siamese :3

here he is outside! FINALLY haha

this is my Wazzy :3

she's a bitch i can tell you that

haha

why? cuz she mmg is a bitch haha

she wreck things and people syg her she scratches

not rude kah! yeee

Awesome day with ma girls :)

Sam bawa jalan today

nasib i free! :D

was so happy jg meet with her

its been centuries since i've seen her

in girls year. haha

had a nice chat with her, was with sabby too!

they picked me up and sent Sabby to college

switch cars then go post office get me lens!

gawd! so slow!

i so malu have to make sam wait

she even call me while i was waiting

"Phyli you okay?" with that concern voice of hers

i pun "sorry arh sam! they very slow kejap kay kejap"

i said that infront of the person NAH! so slow

went to SR warisan to have dinner

since we both hungry while waiting for Alyssa :D

finish went to starbucks and wait for her

10 mins later she arrives! :D

with Sam's belated bday present! hahaha

tekejut sam :)

very happy to see her also lama ody didn't hang out like that

after starbucks went to SR again hahahaha

Alyssa ate and we ordered dessert

i noticed the waiter keep looking at our table

5 seconds, look. 5 seconds later look

i wonder who is he looking >D

chatted awhile

then Sam went to bomb China hahahaha

so left me and Alyssa alone, she asked advice from me about dating

hahahahaha

its her 1st time so i cnt really give her any advice

it comes naturally hahaha

she's so cute and innocent! :3

after that walked around warisan to find bikini for Sam

hehehehehe

but didn't manage to find a nice one

walked around awhile and went home :)

she bought me a floral bag and shoes from Italy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hugged her immediately!!!!!!! I LOVE IT SOO MUCH!!

heres a picture of them :3

for a floral geek like me

I LOVE IT!! ;3 THANK YOU MUCH MUCH SAAAM!

I'm sorry! :(

Recently friends has been asking me out

but i keep turning them down

i feel so bad for doing so

its always bad timing when they ask me out

either have family dinner or something else

it been awhile since i hang with them :(

haih

if can i would ask them out

but thing is i have no transport

takan i ask them out then minta them to pick me up and send me home?

that is just rude man!

if i got car no problem

im really sorry guys! :(

WTFUCK

PUKIMA JG THEM

THEY HAVE NO FCKING RIGHTS TO DO WHAT THEY DID

FUCKTARDS

MMG ONE BASTARD ONE BITCH

FUCKING ASSHOLE

IF WANNA BEAT THEM SAMPAI MATI

BGS YOU GUYS ALSO P MATI.

PUKIMA

IF THEY DARE TO DO THAT TO THEIR PUPS

IT WILL BE WORSE IF THEY HAVE KIDS

DIE LA

I may look skinny but i eat more than you

im sick of people keep telling me

" skinny oh u! eat more bha! hahahahaha"

pukima thats funny!?

oh sure im laughing my ass off

so what im skinny!

but i eat like hell

my appetite is so much bigger than any of my friends

dare to say i don't eat?

prepare to get a hell of cursing from me

only my close friends know my appetite is like crazy

the other day stayed over at Hui's place

we ate maggie for brunch, cooked 3 packets

its like 1 1/2 packet each la

i finish and i say gantung while Hui was full

then we went to eat mcD at 3 plus

i wasn't that hungry but i ordered nyways

if i couldn't finish i pass to Hui mah

that was the idea. skali i finish everything and i feel kinda gantung

someone kill me now

don't blame me for not growing if i eat this much

but i did grow!!

my jeans fit me like never before!

my pants are getting tighter.

I MEAN IT! i say it like that bcuz no one ever believe i could gain weight

thanks to love for giving me this appetite.

he feeds me. ALOT

and i too feed him also hehehehehe sama2 gain weight :3

i may not look like it but i really am gaining

my stomach got a lil bigger

it ain't flat like before liao!

believe me people! :O

Omgeeeeeee

so yesterday love opened webcam from fb

yessss fb can webcam ody

kna gabung with skype tu

but no need to open skype la

not long his mum was looking at me

i smile, he smile, mum also smile

yeeeeeeeeeeeee pnya malu!!

i balik2 kasi tapuk my face

2 of them laugh yeeee

she ask " napa dia tu? "

him, "dia malu haha!"

yea laaaaa

his mum bha thaaaat

last time 1st time went out with his mum pun omg!

>.<

so today have left over presentation blum present

we terpaksa go ==

and afternoon suppose to have midterm

then suddenly postpone == DEI NA!

last minute lg tu

then dad suruh take bus and all kima

buy me a car la! what for i have license jg!

went to wisma with Dorothy they all

to take pictures and go eat, i x sempat eat cuz balik sda ngeeeeh

theres this classmate of mine, while others presenting about fast food

they were saying how not eating fast food is outdated

her: Phyl Phyl, last time i saw one of your fb post saying your parents not letting you eat fast food

me: what? that was like how many months ago and EXCUSE ME i eat! ==

then they start debating in front. geez

Chrissy then pat on my back say its okaay biar la

ish

again tonight i don't feel like eating :/

haih! i haven't weight my body since high school man

i really wonder how heavy am i now

i really wish i gain at least some weight!

i can't be 34kg forever!

forever alone sda tu. ngeeeeeeh

Today today today

Presentation!

have to wear formal which is annoying :/

got up and finally got it over with

gaaaah

no classes after that

went for brunch with Hui and went back to common room

having blood donation there damn!

sat in one table with hui and Brian. sot oh Brian! haha

but decided to sit at Backpackers there

since people wanna sit and use the table.

sat at a hot spot. gaah

saw another empty spot we moved

finally! today's weather soooooooooo hot

Andrew came 1st sat with us to have lunch

then Scott came

next was Chrissy and Kim hahaha

makin banyak nie and then there was Kah Meng

had a nice laugh with them. i like :)

hope can like that again next time

oh yeah! damn! he found my blog! was gonna keep it a secret

well, he'll find out eventually

after reading every post i blogged ( my goodness so rajin)

he appologize for his mistakes knun hahahahahaha

funny la this ass hole of mine :3

i miss holding a DSLR, fast la his mum bg the money :(

really2 wanna have the Cannon 40D :(

Stayed over

went to Hui's place last night after dinner

nasib i didn't miss dinner

even though gantung but SADAP!

reached thr ngam2 the dogs are out

had the chance to play with them

dad came down to play with them also

sun bian see ze pups and see how Joey would be like if he grew up :')

trus i miss him :'(

after freshened up we start our assignment

finish around 12 plus

Today went to cp starbucks to meet up with Chrissy about the assignment

we got free drinks though

walked around after discussing

survey dresses for the coming DnD

and bought nail polish from elianto!

ended up with colourful fingernails!

gonna go college like this ngehe!

got home around 4 plus and mum called ask her to come pick me up.

got annoyed by mum in the car about money.

GEEZ, my money doesn't multiply in my pocket bha!

list me things that doesn't involve money so i can save la!

everyday college how can not use money oh. ISH

anyways, chatting with him

he's sorta pissed how sam wall post me there

i told him she was just playing :/

i feel bad not going to Holloween party at SIA

will be working then, i need the money and mmg plan wanna work on this day.

its LYB sales :/

i guess that it for now. tired haih not really in the mood ody.

2 years ago

awww! i remember this song!

he "dedicated" this song to me when we first started to know each other

and he wanted to take a chance together

but i balik2 say wait or not ready because of previous relationship

hehehehehehehe

so cute la back then :3

can't believe its been 2 years plus :3

Thank Cousin :)

cousin Jan bought this jumper for me from KL
i never wore a jumper before
infact it looks weird on me
but she bought it for me how could i say no?
plus it fits me perfectly
AMAZING 0.0

still thanks though. imma keeping it :)
love told me to webcam
so i did and showed him this baju
this is what he said
" DON'T EVER WEAR THAT WHEN WE GO OUT! "
pnya jahat!!! i know it weird bhaaaa hahahahahaha
so lao!

he went to play badminton with his friend
and strained his arm
kciaaaaaaan
told him to rest and all
he say he miss hugging me all of a sudden
i critisize him " you fever kah!?"
" yeah sot sda wayar"
hahahahahahaha
i love him! he makes me happy >D

ngeeeeeh<3 :3

I don't know why

idk why but when ever i see A

im sorta happy?

can't really explain the feeling

He's a guy and we use to have something

but we're just friends now :)

don't get me wrong

i love my baby boy, i do! :)

i guess he gives me a comfortable feeling like a brother :)

sometimes i miss him though

sometimes hoping to see him in college

just a glimpse and a smile is enough

idk why :)

he can be the person i go to whenever i feel down

or just needed someone to talk to

i can talk to my friends yeah

but idk, i seldom go to my friends i hang with for help

i hope they don't think im neglecting them! ><

just sometimes, only that one person you just wanna talk with.

weird huh? maybe its just me

i don't wanna think so much

i still love my baby boy :D

Rainy day

Had a crazy day with this girl right here. haha

she's my sister in law!

since we were bored out of our minds in college after classes

we wanted to have a walk in suria

but then suddenly thought of "hmm where is Jeselton Point arh?"

i always wonder, cuz everyone always go there and shisha laa

so we went since it was close

on the way there we argued about Kancil and Kelisa how they look like HAHAHAHAHAHA

this one was hilarious. bgila la we two that XD

the rain wasn't that heavy and it wasn't good

cuz the sun was out and was slightly raining

mmg not good

we were on our way and the rain got heavier

terpaksa walk la

got there had a quick look and went to her mum's shop

soaking wet hahahaha

prepare to kna sound tu XD

was sooo tired couldn't stand it

had a nap in the car and went home had a bath

took another nap

woke up watching Spider Man 3 slowly

i don't feel well,

noticed my voiced started to change padahal i didn't even talk.

and having cold sweat

here it comes. i wonder if Hui is sick >D

took two paracetamol and letting sweat come out

he always tell me to kasi kluar peluh if fever so it will go away

it really helps so imma doing it now hehe

hope will be better tmrw

HTM midterm is next week

should be okay, since it exactly the same as POM and i studied it twice

so should be okay i think :/

well gotta rest soon. TIRED from all the running and walking

stopping here for now :)

Again :)

so i just got a text from Michelle (TBS Person In Charge)

say i don't need to go in work this sat and sun

oh alright then but i need to go this training for LYB sales though

gaaah

nevermind p sjaaa

oh i miss him already

budu oh :/

recently many people have been sharing and spamming the news feed

with this page call "book of quotes"

people. please join twitter instead of this shit man ==

its annoying spamming the news feed

i got this quote from twitter

" Just because someone left, doesn't mean your happiness is gone. Happiness doesn't depends on anybody but ourselves. "

showed Hui, actually telling her to try to move on

don't depend on him for happiness

you're missing out all the other good guys

take your time, no need to rush

i wish you all the best<3 :)

So.. whats been going on?

Haven't layan my blog for a few days now.

malas bha hahahaha

thats one reason sometimes i malas to have a blog

but wth can update jg now and then :)

worked yesterday till 6pm only

got home and my pendrive, my phone memory card kna virus

all the files suddenly are shortcuts

kimaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i blame my laptop for it

stress about this almost whole night

ask help from love but balik2 lambat reply.

ish! all of these stuff are important to me bha!

don't give me shit when im stress and tired!

nasib he didn't if not argue nie.

felt so fckd up with this laptop

heres a list of what i NEED:

*new laptop

*new phone

*new bag!

*a CAR

for now its these stuff

if anyone willing to sponsor kan i will

love you entirely!

but obviously who would HAHA

went to sleep very early last night

10 plus ody sleep too tired

got up and noticed i have sudden sore throat

and mucus flowing down my nose like a waterfall

GAWD

i tot it was temporary but it went on whole day

got home and watched Iron Man.

i haven't watch bha! so ssssssshhhhhh :p

tried to nap but can't

instead took my nap at my sis's room

finally!

woke up, didn't really have the appetite to eat

haih

flu still flowing like waterfall

watched Iron Man 2 with dad

was AWESOME!

can't wait for The Avenger next year :D

he called suddenly haha

thought what happen to me cuz i didn't online

and i didn't cari him

sorry love :)

well nothing much and having waterfall again

update again soon :)

He came back! :D

After the dinner went to his place.

miss him soooo much!

nasib he balik if not i die waiting for a month hahaha

his mum have to make up a bride so back kk awhile.

yay! :3

stay over and went to watch Real Steal

IT WAS A.W.E.S.O.M.E

damn! this people must watch!!

we headache about what to eat before the movie start

haha sot! im serious :/

Bainon cbox me in fb say she saw us going in the food court

whoops! kna caught! :p

had a good time with him.

but didn't take pic with him! argh!

idk why but i just like taking pics with him

memory bha :)

he's gonna go back tmrw so have a safe trip love ;)

Baby JJ's Full Moon

Today was baby JJ's full moon

in chinese it means one month old :D

wore and went with me floral dress :3

and Mrs Pang was there!

Cheryl say they were close.my high school principle

i was "ARGH wtf is she doing here? =="

i remember i wanted to ask for my forecast result at form 5

they mf useless teacher was there and so was Mrs Pang

my grades wasn't that good and

they compare me to people, their sons and daughters

bla3, that time thought of going to IS

but nooooooo they have to demotivate me.

SOME TEACHERS

anyways photos are up! :D

what we ate. gila kan! hehe

Gata street

While was waiting for mum, pigeons suddenly flew in

haha funny this

they are always all over gaya street

sampai got on top of cars tu haha

Tiring day!

went to college early

sat with Leisa, Sandra they all 1st

had a quick chat and Leis teman

me go take my transcript ( results )

A B C also got haha

asal pass la :D

went to class and lunch with them classmates

since Hui not in college

had another random time with them

as a laugh i notice i sound like my sister.

OMG ==

freak the hell out of me

i immediately stop laughing. GAWD

that just creaps me out

thinking wanted to follow sis home

but since Leis say can send me home i pun YAY!

but we took the bus to karam and follow my mum jg haha

its okay asal got kawan :D

sat in the bus and a " boo! " came up next to me.

i didn't notice but i turned,

OH! Garry! hai! hahaha

it was kinda awkward.

hmm but its okay :)

went to try that pancake shop at karam

its new so yeah haha it was expensive! ==

quiet not worth it.

waited for mum and went to this church sister's place

they talk about insurance

as always i waited an hour for them to finish talking

that sister also studied Hotel line

gave me some useful advice. :D

got home and felt really tired!

was watching Monte Carlo

but nooooooooooo it has to kasi gantung. kima ==

tmrw la download balik

did i say i got that dream cardigan of mine?? hehehe

YES! i got it! at laaaaaast

since Jun2 was there i got 30% discount. meow :3

Thank you Jun! hehehe

since tmrw i need go to college early

gotta hit the hay soon

goodnights :)

I love you tumblr

suddenly one of a post from tumblr came up

" Be with whoever you want to be with. Fuck what other people say. Its your life. Its your relationship. Its suppose to make you happy, not other people "

i love this quote so much

tumblr always have the right timing to

come up with quotes that fit my feelings

im sorta depress on how my friends

judge/see him or me.

why can't they be happy for me just once? :(

im really sadden bout this for quiet some time now.

this ain't the 1st time

he also told me what the quote says.

its our life, our relationship

don't give a damn about what other people think

we happy together cukup.

he always tell me this over and over again

i know i shouldn't care

but i just do. idk why.

im happy when im with him

why can't they be happy for me? :'(

they always say i deserve someone better

yes, maybe.

but they just don't get how much i love him.

as a girlfriend i want to help

he helps me too.

haih, i really dunno how to express this shit. :/

Kiko

he's weird today. lay down like that hahahaha

2nd pic he was lying on my lap man.

he really fell asleep. hahaha

Another from yesterday :3

so as usual we were hungry while working

no customer we get the chance to buy ourselves something to eat

bought takoyaki's icecream

and May gave an idea, since they had milo in the store we did this!!

vanilla and milo ice cream.

i know i sakai but this is pure AWESOME!

i love it!! :3 must do this next time hehehehe

A bit of update from yesterday

Grandma with baby JJ! :3

le family :3

Baby JJ!

Cheryl Anne is her name<3 :)

"bleh jadi mum sda, haha!" he said. hahahaha

9/10/2011

since i finish work early went to

grandma's bday at cousin's place

everyone was there

all the cousins, aunts and uncles.

we all welcome the new born baby

Joshua James Tan! :D

Cousin had him at age 22

she's not planning on getting married

i don't judge her infact i congrats to her!

but idk about the other relatives though

i love my cousin eventhough we're not close

now i have my 1st ever nephew!

everyone keeps playing with my sis " fast la you!"

hahahahaha they all rushing for her to have one.

and now grandma is a great-grandma!

am really happy for them :)

it was my 1st time carrying a baby

haha was so nervous cause ze baby is fragile! haha

this friday will be a full month!

pictures up! :D enjoy :)

Busy

Haven't been blogging recently

either no mood or just busy

so gonna update a lil here

Resit my paper that friday

have no confidence im gonna pass :(

gonna get ready to repeat and scold by parents

haih

but i really hope i pass though :( PLEASE

Bainon came to my place at night

to get movies and chit chatted awhile

talk talk talk

and almost 2 hours pass

wow! haha

but its better to let some things out to her :)

she also told me her recent happenings.

well, all the best to her!

work again today.

so tiring

migraine again! i don't like

luckily ate panadol and slept while

feel better but sales not so good

maybe tmrw will be better

got back and noticed my laptop was messed up!!

no more battery when i have pw protected

was so fcking pissed!!

i never like anyone touch my things without my permission

i would go nuts!!

changed my pw already,

will take off my battery before i leave the house. ==

watch my Hi My Sweetheart taiwan drama again

i just love that show so don't mind me :p

watching it now actually haha

but wth

i lovvveee :)

called him, he sleep again!

aaaaawwwwww<3 :3

but he teman me jg for while

hehe!

okay la will be sleeping soon also

Goodnight! :)

DIE

1st day of second semester immediately got assignments.

short sem again nie and everything have to rush

my goodness

reading my marketing half way then started staring at one page

budu oh!

end up onlining. haih!

die la tau DIE!

i don't wanna repeat!! :'(

but Hui and he say i can do it i can do it.

but haih!!! budu oh

why have so much confidence in me? :(

i need help from friends maybe for this sub

i need some tips if can

anything will do :/

luckily oni morning class

so i study while waiting for dad to pick me up.

gonna sleep soon. goodnights all :)

So happy!

Two of the most favorite picture of us i like :3

this is the jackass who can be my strength and also my weakness

he might not be perfect,

my friends don't really approve of him

i try not to care but what to do.

what's important im happy when im with him :)

he's the light of my life

he called me twice today

idk why but im just sooo happy to hear his voice!

suddenly i went nuts

me: *looking at kiko* yeee i see kiko reminds me of you nie

him: what??

me: kiko looks like you hehehehehe cute!!!

him: palui! sot2

me: hehehehehe cute bha! manjaa.

its only been a few days ody i miss him. ngeeeh :/

Another day gone by

woke up with swallon eyes

i was shock looking into the mirror

my eyes haven't been this swallon since i cried for him last time

hmmm

watch tv the whole day

i was constantly looking outside where the pups always play

i miss them so

had my period today ==

and its really bad compare to before

have no idea why ._.

nothing much, oh!

he inbox me in fb saying sorry and wished me the late monthsary

aaaawww :)

i miss him so.

have to tahan for a month haha

its okay

its not like he's not cmg back. yet.

ngeeeeh

college tmrw, need to start studying man :/

damn! have to resit. grrrr

argh! i think i can't buy my stuff since i need to kumpul

cash to buy fabrics for cosplaying end of this year :/

haih, saaad.

guess thats all for now, another day wasted.

Have a goodnight ya'll :)

Depress, maybe its just me.

I know he's tired

but at least one text also i appreciate it

but none at all.

have to wait till i call him then know

i really wonder am i still important to you.

please understand my insecurities!

you should know the past still bothers me.

i really need to find someone who i can talk to and actually

understand and relate to how i feel.

i really don't know anymore.

*SIGH*

College. Finally!

Its been like forever since i been to college

1st brought Joey to the vet

he say it might be fever but

when the assistant check the temp

normal.

oh no.

gave him shots but no med,

tmrw go back thr to check again.

hope its not cause of Navy

i don't want :'(

brought him home and

went to college.

saw all my friends

everyone's in common room o.o

as always i look out to backpackers to see who's there

its a habit idk why o.0

he was outside.

didn't care

went back talking to Hui and Hazel

went out to buy stuff come back went out buy again haha

when we notice we don't have enough stuff

Hui went to buy alone while Hazel went to toilet

alone, with him sitting behind me

when he came in look at him look away

i didn't smile or do anything at him

was onlining in my phone,

i think he was over bored?

texted me when he's behind me==

mmg teda kerja lain.

him: fb ja. haha

me: Problem? XD

him. me gusta. haha

laugh sendiri, budu! cuz funny bha!

tumblr XD

finally settle down and start wrapping the hamper.

budu nie, 1st hamper took about 1 hour

and the 2nd? 10 minutes. HAHAHAHA

love texted me say he on the way back.

uhuuu :( gonna miss him for a month

oh! today, 14th month :) i love you :D

OH! went up to check on my result.

SHIT! expected i would resit for my marketing.

ARGH! depress immediately.

im not the only one though

but i don't like this sub

scare i would repeat

I DON'T WANT!!

waste time and money! :'(

try my best try my best!

but need help for this sub man. haih!

who can help bha this? :'(

Tired

look at those puffy eyes! cause from ytd :(

slept at 2am not enough sleep

i look dead at work and didn't do much sales.

hmmm

wasn't in the mood

i dapao seaweed mask today before finish work.

my face feel so smooooooooooooth!

i loike it ;D

gonna take 1st sem final result tmrw

but gonna bring lil Joey to vet 1st.

he's vomiting too D;

nooooooooo! not Joey please!

you have already taken Navy don't take Joey please!!

:'(

its raining now, i immediately went to check on him

afraid he kna rain. :(

should i sleep early?

haih, dunno should i find him or wait for him to find me.

im so tired.

Past

i can tell that they don't like him.

i also told him what they have said.

later on they started cursing each other through statuses

this was last time.

it suddenly came up in the topic when i was talking to him.

he doesn't care what they say and all

but i do!

they curse each other like that and how do you think that makes me feel!?

they don't realize im in the middle of this.

and what was i doing?

NOTHING.

do you know how pathetic i feel?

how useless thinking what am i gonna do they don't like him

and he doesn't really care.

i know i shouldn't care but they are close to me,

they are also people i love.

i know they mean well, i know they don't want anything or anyone to hurt me but

it hurts soo much to think they don't get along. :'(

its in the past, but to bring it up,

finally the tears came.

can't believe i was this depress before

i try to talk to him about it but he doesn't seem to understand

i can't talk to them too i know how they would react but they can relate to me

i just didn't know what to do.

i haven't cried like this since "that" happened.

after finish crying tonight,

im done.

goodnight

Sot!

was working halfway

serving customer

suddenly my name came up

"PHYLICIA!!!!"

i literally JUMPED!

OMG i though it was someone in the shop

screamed my name

skali i look outside OH MAI GOODNESS

Hazel Annabelle Bainon!!

your scream filled the entired shop you know!!!!

hahahahahahaha

you made my day crazy bitch!! hahahaha